C25K;
Week1, Day 1
2.48 miles
48:32 seconds
18:07 mile
739 calories
KILLER DAY. Had to walk the last fifteen seconds of two of the running intervals.... oh well. Try again on Thursday
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
Hydration!
Day 3:
It is the beginning of day 3 and I'm already losing motivation. I put on some old pants today and they felt tight. I'm a stress eater, and I got my first teaching job in December, so I am stress eating up the wall, and I am using this new job as an excuse not to exercise. I go through phases of motivation, but then when those phases are over, I am twice as bad at eating and exercise, and so I've gained a ton of weight. I am officially at the heaviest I've ever been, and I hate myself. It is really hard to stay motivated because both my boyfriend and I are emotional eaters, and its easy to just give up together. I know that he loves me no matter what, and so part of me doesn't care what I look like, but then part of me has a hard time when I can't fit into pants!
One thing that I am having a lot of trouble with is staying hydrated. Being a teacher makes it really hard to drink water since I can't visit the bathroom whenever I want to. It's a curse really. I want to drink a lot of water everyday, yet I am being held back by the fact that I can't make it to the bathroom unless it's lunchtime of my prep period, which is first thing in the morning. So how do I stay hydrated, but still teach all my classes? This is the question.
Another problem: happy hour. Unfortunately, I'm at that age where happy hour and alcohol and bad for me food is a weekly occurance, and it is awfully hard to say no to all of those things. Who doesn't want a drink after a long day at work? I've started looking at the menu and calories before I go so I am aware of what I'm getting myself into.
Sometimes I wonder if I could do it. Can I lose half of my body weight? Can I lose 20 pounds? Can I train myself to be a good eater and not eat bad food when I'm stressed or sad?
Can I do this??????
It is the beginning of day 3 and I'm already losing motivation. I put on some old pants today and they felt tight. I'm a stress eater, and I got my first teaching job in December, so I am stress eating up the wall, and I am using this new job as an excuse not to exercise. I go through phases of motivation, but then when those phases are over, I am twice as bad at eating and exercise, and so I've gained a ton of weight. I am officially at the heaviest I've ever been, and I hate myself. It is really hard to stay motivated because both my boyfriend and I are emotional eaters, and its easy to just give up together. I know that he loves me no matter what, and so part of me doesn't care what I look like, but then part of me has a hard time when I can't fit into pants!
One thing that I am having a lot of trouble with is staying hydrated. Being a teacher makes it really hard to drink water since I can't visit the bathroom whenever I want to. It's a curse really. I want to drink a lot of water everyday, yet I am being held back by the fact that I can't make it to the bathroom unless it's lunchtime of my prep period, which is first thing in the morning. So how do I stay hydrated, but still teach all my classes? This is the question.
Another problem: happy hour. Unfortunately, I'm at that age where happy hour and alcohol and bad for me food is a weekly occurance, and it is awfully hard to say no to all of those things. Who doesn't want a drink after a long day at work? I've started looking at the menu and calories before I go so I am aware of what I'm getting myself into.
Sometimes I wonder if I could do it. Can I lose half of my body weight? Can I lose 20 pounds? Can I train myself to be a good eater and not eat bad food when I'm stressed or sad?
Can I do this??????
Sunday, April 21, 2013
I will be healthy!
Day 1:
I have been overweight ever since I was about 13 years old. I eat my feelings. I eat my stress, sadness, happiness, and about every other emotion you could think of. On the days where there were no friends or family who understood me, a handful of chocolate chips are always there for me. Before I knew it, I was more than 100 pounds overweight, and 16 years old, then 19 years old, and now 23 years old, and still gaining weight. I am currently 135 pounds above my healthy body weight, and I hate myself.
I hate how my tummy looks. I hate how unsexy I feel. My boyfriend tells me I'm beautiful, but I don't believe him.
So today, is day one, because I deserve to wear the pretty dresses and know I look good in them. I deserve to be able to climb a hill and not be out of breath. I deserve to be able to keep up with my students at school.
The worst part of my defeat is my negative self talk. I always tell myself that one more bite doesn't matter, that one week without exercise doesn't matter, that I will never be skinny. Being skinny isn't important. Being healthy is.
This week my goals are:
Exercise for 30 minutes, 5 days a week.
Eat 1600 calories a day
Work on stopping my negative self talk.
I have been overweight ever since I was about 13 years old. I eat my feelings. I eat my stress, sadness, happiness, and about every other emotion you could think of. On the days where there were no friends or family who understood me, a handful of chocolate chips are always there for me. Before I knew it, I was more than 100 pounds overweight, and 16 years old, then 19 years old, and now 23 years old, and still gaining weight. I am currently 135 pounds above my healthy body weight, and I hate myself.
I hate how my tummy looks. I hate how unsexy I feel. My boyfriend tells me I'm beautiful, but I don't believe him.
So today, is day one, because I deserve to wear the pretty dresses and know I look good in them. I deserve to be able to climb a hill and not be out of breath. I deserve to be able to keep up with my students at school.
The worst part of my defeat is my negative self talk. I always tell myself that one more bite doesn't matter, that one week without exercise doesn't matter, that I will never be skinny. Being skinny isn't important. Being healthy is.
This week my goals are:
Exercise for 30 minutes, 5 days a week.
Eat 1600 calories a day
Work on stopping my negative self talk.
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